Outlook until term

June 23, Friday: one more day to get everything settled for the Big Meeting and FOCC before all hell breaks loose.
Meeting with rui xiang, agenda yet unconfirmed. I think he's like G-man, yet there's something about him that holds me in awe.

June 24: Dry Run at Changi with Yuantai and... 3 others. More like a walk in the park, i hope.

June 25: Andy's Birthday Party. A secondary school friend, more like a brother. Lucky guy just got a gf who's arranging a surprise birthday party for the dude. Plan will be to keep him in the dark and teach him piano until 6:30 pm when the gf springs the trap. Then it's off to Marina for a good round of steamboat.

AH!!!! Sh*t, steamboat again. Not good for throat.

June 26: Dry Run at Sentosa. Check it out, man.

June 27: Ambush the female freshies and collect $$$ from them for pharm camp in the afternoon as they come for their medical checkup, as well as meet up with all FOCC members for the General Meeting. Important! Don't screw this up!

June 28-29: Vacation.
Either i will be taking part in nvac camp (days 3-4), or
Be resting at home, sick and in bed, as to let the #$%^%$# virus run its course.

June 30-Nov 2: thinking about going for Rotaract Club camp.... and getting more ideas.. wonder will these ideas ever surface?

Nov 3-Nov 6: The Performance.

Nov 7: Rest and Recuperation

Nov 8: Volunteering for the Singapore Heart Foundation

Nov 9: More rest

Nov 10-13: odac camp, as a logistics helper.

Nov 14-17: rest rest rest...

Nov 18-19: some function by CFA. dunno.

Dad's birthday

Still feeling quite sick due to the low immunity caused by the seizure on sunday.

Woke up at 12pm, sleep still interrupted by forced visit to the toilet last night. Sigh.

Went out at 3:30pm with Shannon, Pearlyn and Sandra from my class to buy stuff from this nice shop in Rochor. Great selection of Halloween/party stuff at affordable prices.

Broke off at 6:00pm and arranged to meet Dad at The Concourse. Nothing much there. Came back and picked the family up, then went to NUS to see xw who was in the PS room with... ahem. Sorry i caused u guys to miss dinner.

Went to this place in West Coast Recreation Centre. There are only two restaurants there, yet we picked the lousier one. Would have rather gone to Jack's Place anytime.

Yet, Dad likes Chinese food, so we went to this seafood restaurant. Large, but few customers. Ordered. Chrysanthemum tea too weak, too hot. Damm should have bought BK at Concourse, cos i'm hungry at 8:00pm and no food was served.

Was sick too. Sore throat getting worse, there's this part of my pharnyx that stings when you swallow something. Plus headache.

Well the meal was over very soon - 5 dishes - not much. Dunno why Dad likes to eat in such places where the service sucks, the food portions are small, yet they charge such excessive prices.

I will not go into Chinese restaurants unless forced to go, or someone else is footing the bill. Grunts.

You are mighty!!

guess someone must like me so much, they even devoted a website and flash to me. haha

BHB!!!

http://www.yongqiang.youaremighty.com/

The difference between a nurse and a wife

A nurse is someone who will take care of you, because its her duty to do so, bound by passion for her job, or simply because she's getting paid.

A wife is someone who will take care of you, out of true love.

"Its time for you to find a girlfriend."

Most males (well, most) of my age have probably come to this stage where they find the phrase which i have coincidentally included as a title creeping their sleeves.

Doesn't matter who said it - for me, it's my mum - but it gets on their nerves.

yeah, yeah, well i know.

The famous Cloud Strife of FF7 was not spared either. In his hometown of Nibelheim, his mother said something like that too. "Get a girlfriend that is older than you, so she can take care of you". something like that.

(right now people are still debating whether his mother was referring to Aeris, but that's another story).

yeah.

finally, i've come to that stage, the point of no return, where birthdays aren't celebrated any more, it's time to move on.

life sucks. they give u your best years when you don't appreciate it, and when you do, they take it away from you.

Vampiric Aura

Had a seizure again on 18th June, 2006.

Can't help it - have been "vampyring" - sleeping in the day and taking naps, leaving me wide awake at night - for the past week.

normal cycle is wake up in afternoon, do work, msn, etc, then get tired and sleep at 1800 to 2200. then wake up and find out that i can't sleep again... until when i hear the first mrt train rumble into Jurong East MRT station which is a stone's throw away from my house at approximately 0530 to 0600.

it's quite a common symptom, the last time i had this was during sem 2 exams. yep prob explained my shitty results. before i went for the trip to phil, i saw a doctor and he called these people "vampires", his son included. sleep in the day and wake up at night.

still fighting hard against this reversal of biological clock thingy. hope i get well by next week.

Chernobyl - No man's land

recently i was finding some stuff for Silent Hill... then i came across this category called ghost towns (cos Silent Hill is based on this person going into some ghost town), then they had a section on this person's website (i would say photoblog) on chernobyl.

her name is elena, and she's living in some russian place called kiev, in the Ukraine, where the whole thing happened. she travels around in no-man's land taking snapshots of what seemed to be the lives of those living there on that fateful day on 1986.

it was as if the whole town stopped in time - a new pompeii, as she said.

along with the site are some other interesting stuff on old Soviet history...

http://www.kiddofspeed.com/

i think for a country that we might never visit in our lives, this is some good exposure. enjoy.

priorities

hols:

get focc in order - make it end with a bang! no less.
compose one song
lose some weight - no, get a suitable exercise routine

term:
stop expansion of social circle - no more socialising unless needed, and to minimal levels. devote all resources to study, study, study.

must pull up CAP. or at least maintain.

shall morph into my selfish and "i-don't-give-a-f**k" mode. no more mr nice guy.

shall shut myself in my room 24/7 and... well shut myself in my room. and go crazy.

and no relationships, serious ones or not, until my cap is restored to its former glorious level.

join only one cca.

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i'm dreaming again. feeling ever so lost in this world.

Don't Drink!!!

Recently, i have been getting nightmares of lovely Grace and Jingwen appearing in my dreams for some weird reason, yes the pharmacists, my dear classmates -

Just a few hours ago i was in dreamland and my character inside was dying for a drink. saw this orange juice store, climbed to it.

Hey lo and behold, behind the store was jw and grace! And when i asked for a drink of orange juice, they just said, "noooooo.... don't drink...."

(this episode strikes back to the time, day 17, when grace and jw especially forbidded me to touch alcohol for the party we had on the last night, after a series of drunked nights - grace especially said that she will have both eyes on me lest i touch a single drop of alcohol.

well i could have sneaked in a few shots, but i didn't wanna extend my stay, especially in the hospital.)

argh! bhbh2 memories still stuck in my head. help. every night is a crazy dream of travelling, volunteering, not drinking...

someday

Someday
When my life has passed me by
I'll lay around and wonder why you were always there for me
One way
In the eyes of a passerby
I'll look around for another try
And'll fade away

[Chorus]
Just close your eyes and I'll take you there
This place is warm without a care
We'll take a swim in the deep blue sea
I go to leave as you reach for me

Some say
Better things will come our way
No matter what they try to say you were always there for me
Someway
When the sun begins to shine
I hear a song from another time
And'll fade away (x2)

[Chorus]

So far, so long, so far away
So far, so long, so far away (away, away)

Someday
When my life has passed me by
I'll lay around and wonder why you were always there for me
One way
In the eyes of a passerby
I'll look around for another try
And'll fade away (x7)

Shock

i just received word that my former block head in sheares hall, has just passed away in a car crash.

i didn't know her on a very personal basis - only at the end of her tenure as block head - during the short brief period of orientation up to her handover ceremony. didn't talk to her much.

but she was very nice. she especially made special arrangements to the her comm then to take care of my epilepsy - whom instructions was subsequently passed on to the next comm.

i remember her as a friendly person in the days of orientation.

it seems so sudden that a person is gone now. but i guess people come and go in this world like an airport, only that you don't know when your arrival and departure times are. and meanwhile you lounge in transit.

i wish god bless her and everything else, thanks for being there for that brief period of time.

Parody - You're Beautiful

Imagine the mtv!

0300 hours, Changi Village...

(guitar)

Guy: My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Now I'm not so sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She turned out to be a man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
I've got a plan

Gay: You're beautiful (x2) You're beautiful, its true

Guy: I saw your face, in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
Cause I’ll never be with you

Guy: Yes 'she' caught my eye
As I walked on by
I could see on 'her' face that ‘she’ was f***ing high
And I hope that I don't see her again
Before we share any moments that will last till the end

Gay: You're beautiful (x2) You're beautiful, its true

Guy: I saw your face, in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
Cause I’ll never be with you

Gay: Lalalalala
Guy: lalalalala
Together: lalalalala la......

Gay: You're beautiful (x2) You're beautiful, its true

Guy: There must be some angel with a smile on her face
When I thought up that she should replace you
Well it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

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Original version:

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant, my love is pure.
I saw an angel, of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful (x2)
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yes, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was, f***ing high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last 'till the end.

Chorus
La la la la la la la la la

You're beautiful (x2)
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.

Fool again

hmm... just had a talk with some good friend of mine on msn...

asked her some questions about love (no, she is just a friend, not what you think.), and her opinions are about love.

hmm.. i realised that i'm such a fool for so many years... and i didn't realise it. heh.

what is love? i guess one has gotta answer that question proper before jumping into the depths of a relationship.

consider the highs and lows. like keeping a pet. like making a long-term decision.

i didn't get much of what my friend's trying to say, but i think she meant that let time decide.
well.. i've let 21 years of my life flew by in an instant.. am i really young? hmm. going on 22.

seems like all my life, i've let my friends dictate most of what i want to do.. and that indicates who i wanna love - it always starts with this rumor here and there... yar.

and in the end i'm left wondering whether is this all an illusion, or is this an act. or what.

just some ramblings.

How do u know whether someone likes you?

Hmm. can someone give me the answer to that question?

Slacking again...

I guess the world's favourite pasttime is slacking, cos when everything blows over in entropy after so many zillion zillion years away, that's all we can do..

So i'm slacking now.. while finishing one tiny part of my foc planning. sighz. and being a nosey boy and looking at other people's blogs. and this is what i found on some site of a fren of mine who's deeply in love. cheers.

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1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her gender. (??)
3. Tag 8 victims to this.
4. If you are tagged a second time, there is no need to do it a second time.
5. The most impt part is having fun doing it!

hmm.. opening speech first.. ahem

well i think i've looked at girls for over 21 years and supposedly failed to find one that suits my whim, (or rather, none of them has supposedly succeeded in finding me on their list, heh) i shall believe that the world is round and will keep on looking for one.

i am a male and i want a female. (does that answer point two? relationships these days.. )
cut the crap;

1. physical: i think appearance wise isn't too much of a factor.. as long as i can take a look at her and don't puke can liao - but i haven't seen anyone of that description before;

we're not building a robot here so it's no use talking about face, arms, chest size, etc.

2. inner: she must be caring. i don't want a nurse, maybe a nurse and wife together would be nice. kidding. well gotta think that i'm a person with a chronic illness after all, and hence i would like if she can shoulder the extra responsibilities. not kidding.

as for others: shrewd, cunning etc should be ok, as long as it doesn't work against my personal objectives. must be filial. sweet, caring and empathetic. also intelligent (doesn't mean a PhD student) or capable, i'm not getting a bimbo unless i'm drunk.

3. must be of low upkeep, increasing to moderate upkeep only when the situation calls for it. yes i'm a miser, or you can say that i've a view that inflation will cause the next generation to eke out the same miserable existence as i do now, so i gotta plan ahead.

4. must be someone i know well, at least for 3-6 months of a good relationship before anything starts officially. doesn't have to be in healthcare as stated in the previous directive but should at least know some first aid / medical terms (like suppository and febrile diarrhoea)

5. doesn't have to be a chatterbox nor a comedian, but i guess she should have some empathy towards my views as a person. i would prefer to live my life out in silence, thank you. doesn't have to be a musician as well. will not bother too much about her friends too, unless they go overboard. that said, she doesn't have to be my shadow either.

6. must have spirit. what do i mean by this? ha. guess this is one thing that must be tested out. basically must have willpower, fighting spirit, etc... yar basically if i had lived a millenium ago in the wuxia world of jin yong, i would have preferred a swordswoman. lolz

7. must be able to slack with me.. lolz. how do ou interpret that, i leave it up to you. however should be working... otherwise be a housewife lar. i'm not raising any tai-tais until i hit my first billion.

8. ____________________(fill in the blanks)_______________________________.



OK, now the fun part.. ya, i have the most fun doing this part:

1) Constance
2) Edwin
3) Tuck
4) Som
5) Bong
6) Xinyi
7) Mayi
8) #8 already?? all others who are in my "Links" list...

Pinoy Ako

There's this song in Phil that i picked up... at that time i didn't know what it was..

They played the song on day 6 at the TRY camp, as a finale to the camp.. well i guess it was quite magical. Once the song was played everyone started to acknowledge the presence of the song and started dancing.. yeah

i guess its another example of how music is such a vital tool in bridging borders...

anyway here's the song:

Orange and Lemons – Pinoy Ako
Theme Song for the television show Pinoy Big Brother

Chords:
Intro: Dsus4, D
Verse, Chorus: D, F#m, Em, Gm (repeat)
Bridge: A or A7

Lahat tayo'y mayro'ng pagkakaiba
Sa tingin pa lang ay makikita na
Iba’t ibang kagustuhan
Ngunit isang patutunguhan

Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap mo
Magbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala
Kung sino ka man talaga

Chorus:
Pinoy, ikaw ay Pinoy
Ipakita sa mundo
Kung ano ang kaya mo
Ibang-iba ang Pinoy
Wag kang matatakot
Ipagmalaki mo
Pinoy ako, Pinoy tayo

'Pakita mo ang tunay at kung sino ka
Mayro’n mang masama at maganda
Wala namang perpekto
Basta magpakatotoo

Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap mo
Magbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala
Kung sino ka man talaga

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Talagang ganyan ang buhay
Dapat ka nang masanay
Wala ring mangyayari
Kung laging nakikibagay
Ipakilala ang 'yong sarili
Ano man sa 'yo'y mangyayari
Ang lagi mong iisipin
Kayang kayang gawin

Repeat Chorus