Birthdays

November is a busy month, its full of Scorpios and Sagittarians celebrating their birthdays.

Not for NUS people. They're filled in a mire of exams starting from the second / third week of November. Example: me. I have exam on my birthday, how great. Thing is the exam falls on a Saturday....

Just went to two birthdays today.

First was Hans'. Old friend of mine dating to secondary school. Haiz. Firstly, agreed to meet him at 1300 at mrt station. First one to get there, set off at 1400. nuff said. Made a hasty exit and strolled around orchard at 1430.

Went to leo's birthday party later, with waiseng and edwin. Other guys from the class, namely, benjamin, shunji, wenwei, cuiru as well as michelle came about an hour later, followed by Leo's med friends and relatives. could see around 20-30 people bobbing around the bungalow chalet. Though we, his jc friends and his med friends didn't really communicate much, nevertheless we had a good time among ourselves.. felt like the good old days in jc except that we really aged.. haha all came in cars now.. omg man

saw hwee ying amongst the med ppl but dint really make contact. dunno. not that close maybe?

ok, so target one month from now.. will hold the birthday party. but there have been no plans for it... no venue.. no budget... no planning.

who shall i invite man... will extend the invitation to all... but probs will conc on the pharm ppl and jc gang... those people who are receptive.. dun wanna end up like leo who ask alot of ppl to come but never did... as if pleading with them... wang and gang...

hope she will come... haha but guess most likely wun.

really. with all the hints i drop, all the people ask me who i like. seriously considering, i dunno why i like her in the first place. other than that stupid reason. shit, shouldn't have dropped so many hints, but...

Losing steam

One more test to go, one final lap. Yet, i'm not one to be filled with willpower.

Sometimes i just wonder, have i done too well in the CAs? put in too much fuel so that there's none left? Its a friday night, yet all the pharmacists i know are studying for the physical pharmacy test on Monday. It's like, what the shit?! I dun do anything on friday nights, man except play and get out of hall and go somewhere. There's nice retro music on class 95 fm. Hell, tell me to study for physical pharm?!?! Bleargh.

Then again, i'm wasting my time here in hall, got nothing to do, finished tutorial 4 for ppda and gek project. Tomorrow will go to Leonard's birthday party at night. Afternoon do wad??
Sunday - one day to pia for Physical Pharm. That will be my strategy.
Hopefully the true or false questions aren't too bad. As the wise Prof Ho puts it: "if you answer true to all the qns, you will get 50% of the marks..."
yeah right.
during the lectures we were all laughing at him, maybe this time he will have the last laugh.

Relationship-wise...

just saw the girl i liked again... well still trying vailantly to forget her.. but in vain...

and my current target.. no action by me... no hope.. for wad sia... not being in her clique is a big disadvantage.

and to "sierra".. i'm sorry to cause all this misunderstanding.. aiya why should i say that "sierra" was cute.. gave me nothing but alot of embarrassment from the guys.. walao damn damn stupid.. and why should i accept the DARE??? made me ultra embarrassed...

hope she doesn't develop Peishan syndrome... which is shit cos i dun wanna avoid her for the rest of my working life.. she is rather cute after all.. haha BUT let me say once and let me say for all... i'm not interested in her!!! and guess neither is she interested in me, so, suah!!

Gals.. the way i see it

Gals fall into 7 different subcategories as i see it:

Hot Bods: those with great bodies fall into these category. This is the most important category as it is governed by hormones (to be exact, female pheromones). You just wanna do it with this people. Those under 18, you are not supposed to read this.

Lovers: those which make great lovers / spouses. This is the second most important category as it is the most practical, but sometimes lust overpowers practicality. However, this kind of gal is vital to most people who wanna start a family and procreate in the right way as the gahmen advises (and not get AIDS).

Friends: those who make great friends. This is the third most important category, as when you don't get the first two, you tend to rely on this category to lick your wounds. A shoulder they will provide, a tale they will listen. Important to have this kinda friends if you wanna make your social life more interesting and expand your social circle.

Enemies: those who make great enemies. Some people like you, some people hate you, this is one of the latter. Thinks you're like trash, just by appearance. Puts you real low on the ladder. Doesn't even notices your presence. Avoids you like the plague. Curses you, gossips behind your back. (Don't think she exists anyway.) This things heal with time but for now, she's volatile and untouchable.

Uncategorised: Hi-bye acquantainces which you exchange no more than 10-20 words per day in one or many conversations, including msn. You dun know her, and she doesn't know you (except by name). Fair enough. Look left look right.

Undefined: People who are already attached. Untouchable, by basic honorific laws of brotherhood. I will never break up a couple myself.

Forgotten: past lovers, people who have caused great sorrow to yourself. Let the dead come to rest.

For guys: 4 categories:

1) Those i know well
2) Those i know but do not know well
3) Those i do not know
4) Those i dun give a damn about knowing

Aftermath of Anatomy Test

whew. the armies of saladin have gone, leaving behind a swath of carnage and destruction.

yep anat test today was shit. of the 4 topics tested, what came out was 1) BLOOD!!! 2) Liver. k. mailto:!@#$%^&*()(*&amp;^%$ (<--no this is not an url) cos i din study an inch for blood. not a single inch.. all the knowledge was from physio!! and it all leaked out like leaky potassium out of the potassium channels, by the time today there wasn't much left.

1) describe the similarities and/or differences between RBCs and neutrophils wrt to:

a) cell morphological features and cellular contents (include organelles), 70%
b) cell functions, 30%.

2) A 21yo undergrad was diagnosed to have Hep A (poor thing). He had jaundice and a mildly enlarged liver.

a) Give an account of the structure, important relations and functions of the liver.
b) Describe histologocial features of the hepatocyte when seem under light microscope and TEM.
c) what is jaundice.

this test is crap, man, oh crap. sustained a few minor memory blocks here and there, but together they add up to a major memory block. shit.

1200 hours. after having lunch with the guys at NUH, they left to buy birthday cake.. whereas i left for hall to get qsar notes. 1300 - went to LT20 and found all the guys there playing - everyone was in quite a relaxed mood.. except some ppl who are still mugging.. anyway i tried to fiddle with the speaker system and found out, aye? one of the wires seem to be able to be plugged into my mp3 player...? why not?? in an instant the LT was filled with the sound of Enya's Only Time. Quite a soothing piece.

Only thing was that the speaker sucked, it has LITTLE BASS and NO TREBLE, so all you could hear was the "dum" sounds of the bass notes playing and some faint singer voicing away. Sucks. Plans for a mini-concert will be shelved until i find a way to better equalise the sound system.
Also afterwards niron, farveez, and parry (?, the cool guy from ke7) came into the LT and farveez said "you beat us to it!" and after that they took over as DJs and played their own songs of hiphop and rock. Sadly, the bass in the LT could not take it at all. It turned out to be utterly horrible.

1600 hours: after the qsar lecture was the birthday celebration of ee sang and choon han, both of them lab mates to each other. cut cake, sang songs and all the other "neutral and acceptable" stuff. annoucements for some vacation at dec, monday's "halloween" celebrations, monday's tutorial 4 (shit, by dr chui) and some other stuff, then all the gals dispersed. left the guys, choon han and ee sang, as well as junice (?!) who was eating cake.

i dispersed as well but felt quite reluctant to go hall.. therefore decided to wait for choon han and / or jevin to see what fate has in store. luckily i went back.. left over was 7 guys (names not published) and choon han (and junice... why she has not left?? hehe) so we waited till the whole LT was clear and ATTACK!! the target fled to L3 but was quickly subdued and carried back to LT20. Then we began the true "birthday celebrations"...
One left hand, one right hand, one both legs, the rest shooting away.. wow.

Happy birthday, choon han.. haha sorry we are a stressed lot of pharmacists

Anatomy Test preparations

After the physio test on monday, tot i had it easy. Slacked the whole of monday.

Retribution came swiftly on tuesday: was piling through Digestive II and Endocrine today, from 1730 hours to 0000. Missed my Short Film meeting back at hall (sources said it sucked). Well.

Of cos, i took a break and went to Teck whye and got my new specs (yay left eye degree reduced from 225 to 200). Having trouble getting used to the lens. Still, that's not the prob.

Prob was i ended up with a big gigantic headache that rendered all the mugging (actually, typing notes) useless.

Thought i could slack through this test, i was wrong. Two days to study for an anatomy test which is fully comprised of short ans qns is much, much shitter work than four days to study for a physiology test with 20 MCQ and 2 piss-easy short ans qns. And NO, the material for the two tests are NOT related in any way.

Tomorrow, urinary system and blood. Hopefully i can have time to re-read the material again.

This is for Leo!!

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4532245984549289375&q=Curry-N-Rice+Girl&time=10000


http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6739710473912337648&q=chinese&p


once again, i'm not racist.

Happy 21th birthday Leo.

Credits: Choon han for giving me the url.

Passing shades

A ghost in greek mythology is called a shade... those that roam the places of Hades.. fyi...

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Saw her again.

In between anat lecture, during the break when i rushed to canteen to buy some tea.

Wasn't much of a conversation, just a hi-bye affair, and i conducted it somewhat like i did with any other friend - they sitting in the canteen, me rushing to get back to lecture. Somehow, the Epi* flowed again.

It wasn't because of the running to the canteen, though.. somehow, at that moment, a sudden Epi surge (LH surge??) just shot through my veins, and i felt like i was on fire. HR increases.

It's.. always been like that for the past few years. When i see someone that i like, this strange phenomenon will happen. Now its like my system has been conditioned, whenever i see her, tons of epinephrine (should be norepinephrine) will flow out of my system, causing that "tingling" sensation in the veins. Makes me nervous.

What the f**k, i thought. Why meet her now. Why must i meet her.

Although we are in the same faculty, we have never seen each other for 2-3 months. And i intend it to stay that way.

But well.. bought my tea, added the sugar crystals and stirred it with an uneasy hand. Lots of sugar crystals, i found the tea to be damn sweet. Paid.

Returned to her desk where she was having a chillout brunch and said bye. "bye," chorused back.

Felt damn high back in lecture. High on Epi. Was listening intently to Dr Dheen's lecture on the Nervous System I, and coping notes intently. Maybe to make myself forget about the whole incident.

Somehow, the positive feedback that was generated just now couldn't seem to stop. Here and there, i kept sipping the cup of tea.

Lecture's over. Went out with the whole gang of friends. Looked back at the canteen where she was sitting just now. Just once. She was still there... and somehow or rather her eyes turned in my direction.

No.

Reflex arcs kicked into place and instantly i looked ahead, looked happy, and tried to immerse myself in my own world.

Somehow, i still can't forget.

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*Epi = epinephrine, increases heart rate and contractility, vasoconstriction and many other factors which i can't remember

Physiology CA

hell this was shit.

Rushed back home on thursday to revise for physio test. didn't work, spent a good fraction of the time playing Halo (Yes!!! Halo!!!). by the time i got all my notes ready it was sunday nite, 2200 hours.

yep, and sunday i thrashed my entire biological clock by having periodic naps of 2h such that by sunday night, i was unable to sleep. yes, again one of those sunday nights where i lay in bed for hell long. didn't know whether i had entered REM sleep. guess i did for a few hours

and then maybe i didnt. woke up at 0630 and found out i was damn sleepy, like zombie. dragged myself to NUS, luckily sat in dad's car. arrived early, talked a bit of cock with leo at canteen, and met yanquan and bingxun for rev, and quite a lot of other gals like baohui who camped near LT23 for revision. I couldn't get anything in at all.

told myself: this is ultimately screwed. maybe i shouldn't have worked so hard, it might help.

sat for test. MCQ was not killer, but due to the impaired consciousness i had to rest every two or three MCQ questions to "get it back". people all around me could testify to the fact that i was stretching my neck, turning left and right, etc, all with my eyes closed. signs of tiredness.

tot, if i could at least finish the paper, it would be good enough. thank god the paper wasn't very hard, cos i couldn't really think for the short ans qns, just wrote what was obvious.

came back to hall at 10 am plus, tried to sleep. here i am blogging instead. muz be the tea.

sighs.

The physiology of farting and burping

I got this from www.tucksombong.blogspot.com. Leonard's and co. blog. Go read.

http://tucksombong.blogspot.com/2005/10/richard-is-so-funny.html

Richard is so funny.....

Lol was reading snell when i chanced upon this paragraph..... which i tot was rather funny.... i guess when you're writing a textbook and you're damn bored u tend to have a tendency to spice it up;

Functions of the Diaphragm

Muscle of abdominal straining: Its contration aids that of the muscles of the anterior abdominal wall in raising the inta-abdominal pressure to evacuate the pelvic contents(eg defacation). This mechanism is furthur aided by the person taking a deep breath and closing the glotis of the larynx.The diaphragm is unable to rise because of the air trapped in the repirtory tract. Once in a while, air is allowed to escape, producing a grunting sound.

companionship

sometimes, i wish i would have some good friend of the opposite sex. well i do have a lot of good friends in the opposite sex now that i'm in pharmacy, but the thing is... she's gotta be more than that.

some things to consider:
1) is it really necessary considering the current situation?
current situation: damn busy till dec 1.

2) what qualities will u depend on when you're choosing?
qualities: none to think of.

3) will it be love, or sex?
love, of cos... though i believe alot of dudes around my age are engagin' in PMS but i think a long term relationship focuses more on endearing love. i mean, try to like the girl not because she's hot, but because she has... well i dunno. Maybe that's the reason why i can't get a gf yet, cos i dunno wad i want- all the stuff about understanding the physiology and psychology of gals is all rubbish.

well. by now i probably realise i'm kinda (goddamn) despo.

shit.

Hell Month

...no, i dun mean the Hungry Ghosts festival. no, not that.

its 0057 and some dude is trying to play Am, Dm, E7, Am with his guitar or ukelele or whatever stringed instrument below my room. bet i WILL be awakened by him later. shit, yea, he plays like shit. and it keeps on repeating like a hypnotic version of some meditterean song.

CO: slight headache. sore throat.
Dx: shit is coming. i can feel it.
Rx: none. look to the December hols maybe?

yes. the Month of October is hell week. why? cos:
1) my gek 1534 project is still untouched. not a single idea. due by end of this mth. everyone's else's 5th module project is almost done - all the SS dudes (no, not those elite german soldiers)
2) 3 tests - anat, physio, and pr1102. i am a goondu to all these topics. no mcq = screwed.
3) hall committees: start liao. shit. hopefully only got meetings, or i'm screwed = no time.
4) comp is like shit. gonna break down soon at a most inappropriate moment. damn.
5) keep losing things. hope i dun lose any more things. ah damn damn damn damn damn
6) she's not responding. target disengage?
7) haven't read up for pr1101, pr1102 and physiology. *screwed^6*

only solace: tomorrow no tutorial at 0800, means can wake up at 1000.

i hope i dun let time slip through my fingers too fast.

At a loss.

Shit. Finally found out that i lost a lab coat and my allrounder Timberland windbreaker to the winds today. The thing about staying in hall is that u can't confirm whether an item is at hall, or at home - it takes a week or two to realise lost property, by the time it is too late to carry out rectificable action - or even to recall where the hell u last saw it.

The loss of the lab coat was ok, well i've got another one, but the timberland windbreaker was some sentimental object, i bargained for it during the Great Singapore Sale and managed to get it at half price, and other sentimental values... Now its lost, great and shit. Why am i so stupid??? There are some possiblities, 1) i misplaced it or 2) someone stole it intentionally.

damn.. arrggh. guess i will go cold in LTs for the moment.

pontanged today's choir rehearsal. i wonder why the hell i am i choir, i am not one singing guy, i am an instrumentalist!!! the reason to sing sounds damn lame and stupid now i look at it - i have a short vocal range of about 2 octaves only and am prone to throat infections the most..

...or is it the urge to join a cultural group, ANY cultural group in hall that very important? tot could play for geyao but didn't qualify. band - didn't try. chickened out at the auditions. what would they want of a silent, seemingly unfriendly guy anyway who doesn't joke and talk much?

seems like my intentions to join hall due to the activities is increasingly a wrong one.... :(
activities? if u want, u can have NUS activities.. who needs those points anyway? am i crazy man.

i wondered why i joined hall in the first place..

The lost purse

went to tutorial with [pKa]e on wed and after that had lunch at Sci. found a wallet!

belongs to a young lady called Koh Li Jia. Apparently she's from the Yong Loo Lin School of Medicine!!! woo.

would be blaspemy to open it. but pK couldn't find her telephone number, so that makes tracing this lady damn difficult. got ic, matric card, nus concession card, posb card???

thing is... she's quite chio!!! OMG

however, wonder how the hell did she manage to lose her wallet sia.. maybe next time do operation lose scalpel inside patient how...? wa... say until like that, damn evil.

anyway looks not bad.. she's born in united states (ABC!) and member of the sea sports club! wow looks like a beach babe. *drools*

sent her an email via microsoft exchange... if u want your wallet back... pls contact me at 9xxxxxxx.

up till now.. she hasn't... wonder if she wants it back? haha