Calm in the midst of a storm

haven't blogged for 4 days. hmm

was thinking seriously whether to s/u my SS, or my marketing module. or both.

SS - can't write essays for nuts, can't analyse (now i truly appreciate the power of arts students with A1 for GP), can't remember. the exam is closed book one day before the exam for physio. DIE.

MKT - can't smoke anything, i don't know any of the current markets although i probably can identify with some of the theory. thing is i went for only half the lectures. and no textbook.

ok. decided to make the rash and risky choice: s/u SS, graded marketing.

something about what Jason said made sense and i shall attempt to prove it now:

postulates:
1) if you (plan to) get mostly A's in this sem, you should s/u because otherwise, marketing or SS or will pull your grades down.
2) if you (plan to) get mostly B's and C's in this sem, you should not s/u as it will make no diff.

i need to get at least 3.5 to prevent my grades from slipping too much.

lets say i get a C for both my SS and mkt. C = 2.0

i get, on average, four B+'s for my other subjects. B = 3.5
if i dun s/u: 3.5 x 4 + 2.0 x 2 = 18. 18/6 = 3. difference: 0.5
if i s/u one: 3.5 x 4 + 2.0 = 16. 16 / 5 = 3.2. difference: 0.3

i get, on average, four B's for my other subjects. B = 4.0
if i dun s/u: 4.0 x 4 + 2.0 x 2 = 20. 20/6 = 3.33. difference = 0.7
if i s/u one: 4.0 x 4 + 2.0 = 16. 18 / 5 = 3.6. difference = 0.4

i get, on average, four A-'s for my other subjects. A = 4.5
if i dun s/u: 4.5 x 4 + 2.0 x 2 = 22. 22/6 = 3.67. difference = 0.8
if i s/u one: 4.5 x 4 + 2.0 = 20. 20 / 5 = 4. difference = 0.5

hmm.. at least a 0.3 difference in scores... some things to hope for...

1. i wun get a C for my marketing. *prays hard*
2. i wun get B's on average for my other 4 subjects?? *pls pls*

Hmm.... 6 days?!??! to physio test?!??! i'm screwed

hmm.. check out the calender in the bottom right hand corner...

physio test: 2nd Mar. 0800

three chapters:
GIT - too much information.
endocrine - nightmare.
renal - dun understand.

2 days on average to study for each topic. not possible at all.

haiz. i have never felt so desperate for a test before.. not even the time when i had an epileptic attack one day before the Anatomy Exam.. ok maybe about the same.

never study. never listened to much in class. ponned two renal lectures. went through tutorial with my mind half there.

sigh. i look at some of my classmates and ponder how they prepared will they be, like be so familiar with every detail, and how they're gonna have an edge over me bcos of that. some have started like one month before the test.

sien. and i wanna sing, i got to oversee the old clothes collection one week later...

how i wish i didn't get myself into such an unextratable mire.

An oasis in the middle of the desert

ok the title was meant to be "afternoon at sentosa" or some other thing but in lieu of the incoming exams...

today went to sentosa with jevin,bx, tiong phew, farv, ching mien, parry, choon han, yuantai, xuanwei, mel, mayi, xinyi & constance.

met at harbourfront at 0930. parry and the gals and ch and tp went in his van while the rest of us made our way there by foot.

surprisingly, we reached palawan beach first. area looks deserted save for the construction workers ambling around. started playing volleyball which yuantai brought. later the other team came, and the volleyball "match" got more crowded.

split ourselves into 3 teams. match of 5 points and so we rotated ourselves. somehow or rather when choon han got to be the referee, the score became 1.55 to 3??? and 0.1 points will be deducted for out or something so the final score will be like 3.014 to 2 or something.. lolz

when i was not playing.. was busy looking at the far side of the beach where some filming seemed to have taken place... parry and co said they saw felicia chin!! hmms. worth a look

after everyone got tired of the volleyball.. we decided to go into the water. well. the waters looked so inviting and soon it was the "in" thing to get wet... haha if u dun get we will help u. "u can run, but you can't hide!!!" soon all 9 guys were soaking wet in the shallow water. gals we dun touch, they got wet themselves. haha.

we tried doing a pyramid in the water where we had guys sitting in between guys' shoulders and etc. to form layers. go imagine. then the words "broke back mountain" was used.. i think abit too much. imagine 9 "topless" guys hugging each other to form the pyramid. *retches*

ch suggested playing a game whereby a gal shoulder-sits a guy, we play scissors paper stone, then we dunk the loser team in the water. obviously the gals didn't think it was very fun.
hmm. maybe i can suggest that for FOC. *devilish grin*

about 1pm, got out of the waters and had lunch, courtesy of bingxun. (next time should ask the gals to do it.) sandwiches, watermelon and Cheese Balls...

went over to Siloso beach where mel and co wanted to kayak. hmm. saw something interesting on the way!! on the beach, there was this photographer who was shooting this damn chio bikini babe, FHM style!! she was like splashing water around (damn fake) whilst being shot. can't really take a closer look though. but there was like 3-4 other similarly dressed bikini babes, all darn chio, sitting on the table beside them and wow!! *wolf-whistle*

(ok pls pardon. i've never seen an FHM shoot before. so there.) hmm why didn't we walk on the beach.

reach siloso. more babes here, ahem, i mean more people here. the attendance on both beaches in the morning wasn't too good. probably the weather wasn't too promising. it changes from dark clouds to bright sun like an a.c. current. we can have bright sun and rain sometimes though.

got our kayaks. saddled with ching mien (ok that sounds darn gay, how gay is this outing man. BBM). ready to go! acted like privateers on the high seas, splashing water on whoever we saw (but got splashed more in the end). advice: don't go and splash constance/mel. ha. frigate.

after everyone was tired, we just lay down in our kayaks and embraced the sun's UV rays. and hence that explains the patches of sunburnt skin lying in parts of my body.

one hour was up soon, and after we returned the kayaks, we went for shower. girls as usual take sooooooooooooooooo long. despite giving them a headstart to shower area they still took longer. sighz.

went to harbourfront to eat. we had Shilin snacks while gyrating to Jay Chou's 4th album (yi qun she xue de ma yi, bei fu rou suo xi yin.. wo mian wu biao qing...) spent one hour there listening to the 12 tracks in the cd, i dunno whether the owner minded or not.

haha enjoyed myself man... at least this was a day that nobody from bhbh2 bothered me (only a call from Chester.. but that's another story). parted around 1700-1800; i and jevin took the 97 back to home... halfway we discussed what evil thoughts he had for FOC 06-07.

Reached home at 1900 and concussed.

Final heartland

last heartland performance. from today, feb 19 onwards, i will revert back to a common NUS student. an NUS student in pharmacy way deep down in a mire of shit in fact:

lsm1401: luckily, just (hopefully) managed to pass the first test. last minute revision 2h before the thing.

mkt1003: missed two lectures out of 5. lack the proper skills to tackle the module. going mum in tutorials, dunno wtf it is talking about.

ssa2211: dunno wtf is it talking about. readings are so much. going to national library on monday with yuantai to dig for stuff. essay haven't done yet.

py1106: severely lagging in renal. shitted. dunno what's going on in tutorials.

pr1103: dunno how to handle the exam, all general knowledge. practicals are like shit.

pc1327: only module which i got some confidence. cos it's non-exam.

haiz. two weeks more to the mid-term milestone: the "one-month-before-exam" time. lets call it Tm.

why is it so important? cos one month before exam, CAs will start rushing in, then the study level gets so high. then when we are finished with the CAs, we dun even have time to breathe in, before the exams set themselves upon us.

At Tm, you lose your freedom.

we are two weeks to Tm. sigh. and currently i'm lagging heavily. i'm bogged down with bhbh2 as well as well as a relationship that i'm not too sure of.

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Last day of school

...well... for the first half of Sem 2.

at the touch of 2000 hours, i received a package from a messenger, a finely crafted paper carrier with a set of exquisite chocolates and what i have been expecting in semi-anguish all this while long.

it felt like a tremendous relief when i received the package. yet i dare not open the envelope to read its contents. and yet as i held the bag from LT20 all the way down to the sports track leading to the 197 bus stop, i wished, at every spotlight, that i could just read and make out the inscriptions on the halo of the dim light.

but it felt silly reading in the middle of the sports field. went to the 197 busstop. took out the envelope, but 97 came and so i hopped on.

clambered to the top deck of the double-decker and fumbled with opening the envelope.

well the fact that i got a letter back.. means the situation wasn't too bad. or as bad as i had originally imagined.

almost everything was a reply from the letter i sent her, but there was one sentence that mattered.

i was glad that she wasn't irritated or angry or displeased and we could continue as friends, but currently, no more than that. that gave me so much peace in within.

i felt like something could at least happen. even its not now, at least we can start.

guess for now, working hard on work matters more than working hard on matters of the heart.

Indecent Obsession

Obsession: Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.

Infatuation: A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.
An object of extravagant, short-lived passion.

today, i spoke at length with a good friend. am i obsessed?

"compulsive preoccupation"... do i think of her that often...?

actually no... not to the point that she invades my dreams and every thought.
unwanted feeling or emotion? no... obviously rite? i want this to happen? maybe... not.
anxiety?? or nervousness??

my friend said i was obsessed. i was obsessed with a person once, and it hurt a lot when we had to finally part.
i'm not making the mistake of waiting so many years again...i don't have long to wait anymore.

guess i should give her more time. time for both of us to recover from this incident, time for both of us to normalise, time for both of us to get back as friends.

sigh. i wish i hadn't made any move during that fateful day. now i avoid her like the plague. why? sigh.

Busy busy

Oh sHit.. i actually missed (am going to miss) an entire physiology tutorial!! something i will never ever think of doing in Sem 1.

i'm crazy.

dunno who told me thu morning had no physio lecture. so i thought oh great, can sleep in a little more.

then missed grp 1's tutorial.

can't go for grp 2's tutorial since i got subject pool registration (which i can't escape from)

maybe can crash grp 3's tutorial a bit then RUSH OFF to science of music tutorial. sighz.

Valentine's Day

Went to help engin bazaar in the morning. Cough still there. Didn't do much, as with monday. Engin people i think are generally not very responsive to guys - it was jw who was doing all the selling. and boy was she great.
I'm really lousy at selling stuff, i found out.

Took the chance to scoot at 1230 when cheuk fung asked me to deliver flowers. Asked him to donate the money to our cause. It wasn't very much, but i hoped it helped. Delivered 5 batches of flowers to S15, S14, outside LT20, TH, KRH. Some recipients were surprised. Others were quite elated.

Still feeling quite stressed knowing that there's a test coming along at 1630. went to choon han's room at his behest, only to realise i left something at the engin bazaar when i scooted - a vital part of operation valentine. so went back, studying about translation on the way.

it wasn't the best arrangement available, leaving only nuan xin there to single-handedly manage the store of bears. but i dunno. you shouldn't be selfish when it comes to volunteering missions, but that's practically what i'm doing now. contradictory. poor gal. but i have no time, i need to rush out the products for Ops valentine, and to study for my test. dunno if i would be of any help when i remained there, as with monday.

choon han was a great help in revision, as i prepared the products for Ops Valentine he droned off in a singsong manner, all the steps of DNA replication, transcription, and translation, and even wrote them on his window so that i could see. so nice.

1600, boarded the bus in a hurry to MPSH1. saw some people there and gave out the presents, many of them in horrible folded states due to the lack of proper boxes. well.

sat for test. was quite stumped for about 20min, then attempted the questions for the next 20min, only to find out, hey wtf am i doing!! everything became clear and hopefully this test will be ok.

delivered the rest of the presents outside MPSH. after giving out everything (exclduing junice's and mayi's group present), wanted to, as planned, go to the recommended place and give her but she had something on, so i decided not to bother her and let her enjoy herself. dunno why.

left with bx, ch, constance, jw to the engin stall... i dunno why i followed them. wasn't in the best of moods either. waited for ch and bx to buy stuff from our stall. i sorta liked the pink bear with its soft fur that brenda or constance pointed out. had the money to buy it but for no reason, i didn't know whether to buy it or why i should buy it. for that 30 minutes when they were at the stall i felt that my mind... wasn't there anymore. didn't talk much. for some reason, the adrenaline didn't flow and i stood there, muted, zombified.

trailed them like a silent shadow back to biz busstop and then walked to hmk terrace and took 183 home. alone. on the way home i saw tons of people coming back from work, the ladies carrying bouquets of nicely arranged flowers and the gentlemen holding the ladies in their arms.

then i wished i'd done something which i didn't dare to do. oh man. why are you such a coward.
*confused*

ps. btw this is my 200th post. didn't know i had so much to crap about.
if you're reading this, thanks for your effort. i gladly appreciate.

Lion's Befrienders

Went for this thing called Lion's Befrienders' in the morning. It is something organised by rotaract club, so as bhbh2 members, we are encouraged (?) to take part in it. So we went to this old folks centre in Holland V (just next to the shops where we so frequently go).

Never did i know in HV that they had those one or two room flats with old folks staying in them. Every week this organisation called Lion's Befrienders (i think) asks these old folks down to interact with young people like us, chat, and have activities, and a good meal.

Our programme was simple: sing 04 x chinese new year songs (why did nuan xin pick 04 x songs which i, an audiophile, have never even heard of?!?! can pick some songs which everybody knows at least), interact with the old folks with activities such as cards, chess etc (no mahjong, haha), then get out of there, for i needed time to prepare for Operation Valentine, planned to go taka to check things out.

ok.. so our guests came in at about 1100... there was this guy who was sitting in the front so i decided to try my luck and approach him, since the others were already starting.

he was a queer man of 90, spoke english (i tot all old folks spoke chinese or dialect! hmm.. interesting) and malay and hailed from acs (barker). didn't like chinese and (hokkien?) people very much cos they were "crude". so he refuses to speak to these people, as what he said (ok he's quite a loner with the other old folks). can't reveal much due to confidentiality, but one thing that struck me was that at 90, he had this "waiting to die" mentality, which i feel it was quite sad. and how the hell am i gonna talk him out of it?

he said something like "old already, can't walk (or something), everyday i have a smoke, drink coffee, and wait to die." damn freaking sad man.

we didn't talk much, only superficial stuff like "have you eaten" kind of questions. then later jingwen came and despite her feminine charm failed to swoon the old guy over. so i and jingwen racked our brains and tried to sustain the conversation for a few more qns, then in the end we gave up, and excused ourselves. however he did invite both of us to his house though. mus be pretty lonely.

i joined another guy playing chinese chess but as i was halfway through the game i could see the 90yo guy looking at me intently. he had no one with him to talk to. sighz. i really wanted to talk to him but the conversation can't really be sustained.

btw, this guy i was playing chess with was excellent!! guess he should be 60-70 yo but for all the guys here +20 yrs to their apparent age man. you can't really tell. he said he hasn't been playing chess for a long time, but i think he's bluffing, he almost won me (but i won him in the end... by accident). though we didn't play very seriously, we were still taking back moves and both of us reminded each other of blundering.

to tell you the truth man, he is GOOD. or maybe i had degraded cos after the game i presented with a headache lol.

after the lunch was served. but then jw saw the 90yo guy leaving with louis so jw and i went together with him to his house. wasnt very far away, but probably an effort to the old guy. later his maid came and accompanied us.

his flat had lift access to every floor. on coming out into the main corridor, something struck me: the lonely, desolated corridors of those pre-80s hongkong flats (also those you find in ghost movies like The Eye). dark. deserted. narrow. leading off to one-room alcoves.

however, his room was surprisingly quite tidy (prob due to maid). had a picture of him in better days, a nice bed, and a table with a telephone. in one corner was a small kitchen and toilet.

the old gentlemen played the kind host and invited louis, jw and me into his flat. served coffee to 3 of us. he said some stuff but the most memorable was: "nice and kind people i invite to my house, unkind people i dun invite to my house." muz have seen scores of unkind people throughout his life.

one of these volunteer workers came along and told the 3 of us his story (confidential) at this point, my heart went out to him.

there are probably many other old folks in singapore who face the same problem - living by themselves, being dumped by the younger generation for some reason. at this final stretch of life, instead of living happily and in bliss and respect, they have to depend on social services for the rest of their life and total strangers, unrelated by blood to help them. its so sad that such veterans of life itself should be made to eke out their days in such an unhonoured manner.

with the growing ageing population, more and more of this problem will surface. and if no one cares about them now. who will care about the next ageing generation?

I survived Hell Week.. to find myself in another

A look at the events of this week:

Monday: lesson until 5pm. After 5pm spent 4 hours in NUH and $70 trying to figure out why i "had a feeling that i had something stuck in my throat". Was eating otak (dinner) on Sunday after the bhbh2 meeting at esplanade. then felt something stuck in my throat. was thinking of some splinter.

then after one triage, one consultation, one x-ray, one scope through the nostril by ENT specialist... still nothing. pissed off at the endless waiting... i wanna do so much hw... then spent $70 for nothing!!! wtf wtf wtf...

Tuesday: changed prac with may may. went for morning. skipped mkt1003 lect to see specialist at NUH. increased dose to 400mg om, 600 mg on (previously 400 mg bd). talked some crap with dr Ong.
came back at 1600 to sheares hall to do makeup and get ready for Heartland Performance at Ang Mo Kio.
Heartland Performers: me, jw, louis, gao shan, puay san, constance, paulene, laureen.

Wednesday: wore white shirt and black pants to sch, looked absolutely impressive (haha). did lsm lab with yien ling, as usual, saw a display of her finer intelligence. haha. got dismissed at 5pm instead of expected 6pm and rushed back to sheares hall for another Heartland Performance, this time at Yishun. starting to get used to it, if u tell me to do this on a regular basis i probably wun mind, but i need to catch up on my studies.
Heartland performers: me, sukiang, evelyn, puaysan, laureen, paulene, winnie

Thursday: wore jacket with singlet underneath and jeans. went to ucc at 2pm. (ponned SoM lecture, again. cos Joy like want to go then dun want to go..but when we reached LT32 she got cold feet cos it was 1pm and she didn't wanna step into the LT. ha. and i tot of leaving 15min after that.) then got sien at ucc cos supposed to help the EML people set up the concert venue but then nothing much was done until 4pm, i got so bored, i decided to leave for my SS lecture.

It was a good move. The SS lecture, although tiring (u just have to listen to NUS history teachers talk and you'll either fall asleep, or get a seizure), was good. Never knew what happened to singapore during 1395 - 1819. Now i know. haha.

Went back to UCC, helped them set up a little. think that the EML guys dun really know me, they seem to ostracize me or something, not much conversation flowed. maybe they're busy. or what. whatever. i regret not putting up a piece for this concert due to Chingay commitments, but well, Chingay is not an excuse for not doing so anyway. Watching them rehearse made me feel that the pieces they put up are probably what i can put up too.. not to sound too proud here. But it made me feel that i can do it, something i had previously not thought of. Due to the air of (i dunno how to describe it... mistrust? apprehension?) i did everything half-spirited. No pharmacists were there, none of my friends were there. And i had not made much friends there too. Sighz. Sometimes during the breaks, i wonder why am i there when i could be doing something else much more worthwhile.

Left at about 9:30pm due to closure of UCC.

Friday: Physio tutorial from 2-4pm, followed by LSM tutorial from 4-6pm. Then back to UCC for the concert. I guess two other concerts were simultaneously being held - one from Eusoff Hall Dance and the other i dunno what. My ticket booth (i was the ticketing machine with a smile) was at the far right of the first lobby, it was actually quite ulu as compared to the other shows. Not many people came, all probably friends who were dragged by the performers. Ha. was thinking of performing next time, then i can drag the whole pharm ppl here. naive. Mood was better today, esp after the 1.5 h concert, where the adrenaline was converted to endorphins. Left at about 10:20 pm from UCC. Reached home, tried to cram some LSM but didn't work.

Saturday: supposedly needed to go for some counselling (i do the counselling) thing organised by pharm soc. thing is:

they sent me a personalised email (means they have my email address)
but in the list of groupings, there is no group that has my name
the thing is, i remembered very clearly in anat lab that i signed up for this!!

grrr.
thing is, u have to wake up at 0930 if you're going!!! i woke up at 1200 instead. sien. hence decided i'm not going.

now i'm blogging.

later got meeting at yih with the bhbh2 gang at 1700. sien.

Sunday:
0930-1330: Lion's befrienders (some old folks home visit) organised by bhbh2 / rotaract club.
???? - ????: Heartland performance at Hougang.

Heartland Celebrity (2)

went for another round of Heartland Performances. today i heard from sukiang that we're going to yishun so not too bad. haha.

then i found out the floats were parked in amk, like yesterday. dots.

was praying hard that the malay gal would somehow forget me. she didn't.

first thing we saw when sukiang turned into amk central: the malay gal screaming "magician!!" o.....m..........g............. shit shit shit shit shit shit

anyway. saw leonard and managed to talk abit with him before getting dragged away by the malay gal. saw her friend, the chinese gal too.

these young 'uns are more intelligent and technologically advanced than i was when i was their age. they know how to sms, take pictures, play games on the hp etc. think they know how to mms too haha which i dunno.

thing was, i shouldn't have shown her my hp cos she asked for my huge magician's cards (which i had kept in my trousers pocket yesterday) so she just took the next toy she could find ie my hp.
went to take pictures of the other floats (muhaha. help me take some pics) so while the others were posing with others for pictures, i had to entertain the little gal who was running in between the floats to make sure she didn't run away with my handphone.

that was until we left for yishun. i wonder, where are the parents of both the malay gal and the chinese gal? wun it be dangerous to let them run around like that. esp when both of them are gals and with the huang na case not too far behind us.

left for yishun. we went dunno where. but remembered stopping at some bungalow/ semi-d area for handshakes and photo-taking, as well as some housing estate in chong pang area. travelled on upper thomson road, evoking many memories of then recruit tan yq in nee soon camp, the first army camp i was posted to. went along the bus 169 road to dieppe camp and khatib camp then turned into khatib town. those early army days..

wonder if warrant goh is watching. haha.

anyway most of the road we drove on today was pretty deserted, dotted with army camps and private property or mrt tracks. so i, louie and ian (the other two operators of the box) played tai dee with the extra large playing cards!! with cards evenly spread out in hand, i conveniently played and posed at the same time (need some imagination here).

e.g. So i was happily smiling and waving to the people in the streets, then

louie: 3 4 5 6 7

ian: 4 5 6 7 8

me: pass (still waving and smiling)

louie: 10 J K Q A

ian: pass

me: pass (still waving and smiling). etc

ok. quite boring... mainly was road after road. quite slack.

back to amk where the floats were to be parked again. yes. the little malay gal. again. as the float turned into amk central she ran like some marathon runner only thing is she had two bottles of mineral water with her.

"i want magician to have one!!" she screamed while running with the float. think she fell once. (my) heart went out a bit to her. told her to "wait for me (while the float stops)" and got teased endlessly by the crew about it.

ok more photo-taking after we stopped. time to leave as the PA people switched off the lights of all the floats.

then another incredible thing happened: she took my right hand (luckily i wore gloves!) and said, "i wanna hold your hand!!" oh my. i know the beatles got some song with the same name. then dragged me to the front of the procession where we were walking to sukiang's lorry. (too late to have supper). ok. have to send her home again.

she sat at the back of the pickup truck with the wind blowing our hair. took her to block 125 (where she lived), offered to send her home to the doorstep (at the request of all my dearest fellow team members). got into lift. before we went up, she asked "could i have your hp number?" why? i asked. "so i can call u." NO WAY OK. found some absolutely lame reason to slither out of the situation. sun zi says: when in a difficult situation. RUN.

when we reached 5th floor she forbade me to leave the lift and said she'd go home alone. ok. her choice.

waved to her as i made my careful retreat from block 125. left amk in a hurry.

haiz. never gonna visit amk again.... for a very very very looooooooong time.

Heartland Celebrity (1)

went to amk to for heartland performance. today i'm the magician, as louis wanted to be the clown with jw. and gao shan. being the magician does not require much makeup but not very fun as you can only remain in the confines of some box, and you just wave and show some magic tricks which i have absolutely no idea how to do.

the job was to parade around amk estate on top of the box. sometimes the float will stop at designated places, where the actors (magician, clowns, fairies) will interact with the people there ie take pictures, make the people laugh, just have a good time. otherwise the job is just to wave around at the people, be it on the streets, in their houses or on the corridors of the HDB flats.

i was situated on the top of the "Pandora's Box" so i was the highest actor around. haha felt like the President going around the Padang during NDP.

but that was not the end of it...

the floats were parked at amk central b4 we set off. quite shockingly there was this malay girl in traditional baju kurung who was like tagging along with the NUS team. she was there when the floats were parked at amk central before we left, think she ran a bit here and there after the float, and after we had made our rounds, she was still there... then when we went for our R&R (i.e. delayed dinner) at some hawker centre, she and her friend (a chinese 11yo gal who didn't talk much) followed us.

grrr. at this time i was already quite seh from all the lights on the float and flashes from cameras. then the two of them still making a lot of noise. argh. can't eat in peace. threw most of the dinner away (it sucked anyway).

then we had to bring the two little girls home. the parents of the chinese gal had a store at the hawker centre, so left the malay gal... we (i.e. the 12 of us) took her in sukiang's lorry to the foot of her house... a certain block 125 in amk.

then here comes the bombshell:

the malay gal told yee lian, in malay, that:

"i like the magician! (me.) he's so cute! but please don't tell him!"

omg. so thats why the malay gal tagged along!!!!

i super diaoz. For the first time in my life, someone actually liked me out of the blue, er...

well i thought i was some monster or something's wrong with my face. but. hehe. dun think so now.

problem is, she's too young (11yo).. and i'm not paedophilic.

grr they teased me all the way back to sheares hall.

Can't sleep again...

well got up at 1:30 am today then a thousand and one things flashed across my mind.. sien can't sleep from then till now.

think later i'm gonna attend the physio lecture, then screw the pr1103 lect (hopefully it's talking rubbish again), screw the SoM lecture, use this time to sleep. i have about 5 hours till the marketing tutorial.

hopefully can concuss in choon han's room or something. dunno if can conc on the lecture for renal or not. i missed lecs 3 & 4, hopefully dun miss the last two as well.

alternatively i can screw the physio lecture, then attend the rest. means i sleep NOW.

sighz. i think i should really seek help for this ailment... insomnia.