Seizure again -

Date of seizure: 28 June 2005
Time of seizure: unknown.
estimated between 0300 hrs (time of sleep) to 0800 hours (time of waking up)

Date when i can be drug-free: at least somewhere in 2008.

shit, guess i really overdid it this time.

the blame?

i can put the blame of this episode due to 1) my errant lifestyle: sleeping past midnight, something which i hardly did - mainly due to msn chats and downloads, 2) my diet - full of curry, which is a no-no, but what the hell, i've been eating curry cai fan for lunch and dinner these few days. Great fan of capcasin i am.

and 3) it was bound to happen. the last episode was last september.

how did it happen?

previous history: went to cut cans at NUS up to 6pm, came back had dinner (with curry), came home, played some GTA while getting drunk on milo (about 600ml!) went to bed at 8pm, woke up at 9:30 pm, watched tv until 10:30 pm when the internet was available, chatted until 2am. slept at 3am.
i took the medication on time, viz, 6pm dose at 6pm.

so its like i was sleeping, and (the seizure happened), and i woke up (and i thought so) and felt damn groggy, and felt wet patches of stinking saliva all over the pillow, the bolster, the bedsheet. then someone (in the dream) told me to "move on", when i said i "wanted to go back to some place", can't really remember what the hell was going on. anyway that was about 0700 hours or so, for i really woke up after that, i knew i was in my bedroom, and proceeded to toilet to urinate. but then, whoa! suddenly i just lost balance and started staggering all over the place, i thought i was still dreaming or what. looks too real. then i realised that i can't control my movement very well and was crashing into walls, chairs etc so i frantically headed for my parents' bedroom (thank god it wasn't fri, cos otherwise mum would have been working) and called for help, told my mum i felt dizzy or something. then she bade me to lie on her bed and sleep, and with her ways of diagnosis, she said:

"ni zai fa re" (you're getting too "heaty").

well, apparently being too "heaty" is a cause of the seizure. curry, milo (because it contains chocolate), and not enough sleep are causes, as with a million others.

before i slept i felt for my tongue. it felt funny, like there was something on both sides of the organ. went to mirror and checked, there were some bite marks - meaning i had seized. this was the absolute proof.
anyway after that i was too groggy to argue, so i slept from 8am to 12pm. woke up at 12pm to have lunch, felt my head feeling damn painful, at the site of the excision (the scar). lunch had changed to porridge but i did not have much appetite anyway. my neck on the right side hurts too, and i can't seem to move much of my fingers.

after lunch, slept from 12pm to 4pm, which is now. wake up and wrote this. feeling better, but the neck pain still persists.

the significance?

the onus of this episode is that mum now views the staying in hall a no-no. what happens if i seize again? have to find out the measures the hall personnel have for epileptic people.
which also means that i must sleep early
have a good diet
and refrain from going on the computer too much. all this while:

interacting with hall people
studying
chatting on msn
getting involved in hall activities
other commitments, eg tuition

makes staying outside home more like a fantasy than a fulfillable dream.

*sigh*