Passing shades

A ghost in greek mythology is called a shade... those that roam the places of Hades.. fyi...

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Saw her again.

In between anat lecture, during the break when i rushed to canteen to buy some tea.

Wasn't much of a conversation, just a hi-bye affair, and i conducted it somewhat like i did with any other friend - they sitting in the canteen, me rushing to get back to lecture. Somehow, the Epi* flowed again.

It wasn't because of the running to the canteen, though.. somehow, at that moment, a sudden Epi surge (LH surge??) just shot through my veins, and i felt like i was on fire. HR increases.

It's.. always been like that for the past few years. When i see someone that i like, this strange phenomenon will happen. Now its like my system has been conditioned, whenever i see her, tons of epinephrine (should be norepinephrine) will flow out of my system, causing that "tingling" sensation in the veins. Makes me nervous.

What the f**k, i thought. Why meet her now. Why must i meet her.

Although we are in the same faculty, we have never seen each other for 2-3 months. And i intend it to stay that way.

But well.. bought my tea, added the sugar crystals and stirred it with an uneasy hand. Lots of sugar crystals, i found the tea to be damn sweet. Paid.

Returned to her desk where she was having a chillout brunch and said bye. "bye," chorused back.

Felt damn high back in lecture. High on Epi. Was listening intently to Dr Dheen's lecture on the Nervous System I, and coping notes intently. Maybe to make myself forget about the whole incident.

Somehow, the positive feedback that was generated just now couldn't seem to stop. Here and there, i kept sipping the cup of tea.

Lecture's over. Went out with the whole gang of friends. Looked back at the canteen where she was sitting just now. Just once. She was still there... and somehow or rather her eyes turned in my direction.

No.

Reflex arcs kicked into place and instantly i looked ahead, looked happy, and tried to immerse myself in my own world.

Somehow, i still can't forget.

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*Epi = epinephrine, increases heart rate and contractility, vasoconstriction and many other factors which i can't remember