Valentine's Day

Went to help engin bazaar in the morning. Cough still there. Didn't do much, as with monday. Engin people i think are generally not very responsive to guys - it was jw who was doing all the selling. and boy was she great.
I'm really lousy at selling stuff, i found out.

Took the chance to scoot at 1230 when cheuk fung asked me to deliver flowers. Asked him to donate the money to our cause. It wasn't very much, but i hoped it helped. Delivered 5 batches of flowers to S15, S14, outside LT20, TH, KRH. Some recipients were surprised. Others were quite elated.

Still feeling quite stressed knowing that there's a test coming along at 1630. went to choon han's room at his behest, only to realise i left something at the engin bazaar when i scooted - a vital part of operation valentine. so went back, studying about translation on the way.

it wasn't the best arrangement available, leaving only nuan xin there to single-handedly manage the store of bears. but i dunno. you shouldn't be selfish when it comes to volunteering missions, but that's practically what i'm doing now. contradictory. poor gal. but i have no time, i need to rush out the products for Ops valentine, and to study for my test. dunno if i would be of any help when i remained there, as with monday.

choon han was a great help in revision, as i prepared the products for Ops Valentine he droned off in a singsong manner, all the steps of DNA replication, transcription, and translation, and even wrote them on his window so that i could see. so nice.

1600, boarded the bus in a hurry to MPSH1. saw some people there and gave out the presents, many of them in horrible folded states due to the lack of proper boxes. well.

sat for test. was quite stumped for about 20min, then attempted the questions for the next 20min, only to find out, hey wtf am i doing!! everything became clear and hopefully this test will be ok.

delivered the rest of the presents outside MPSH. after giving out everything (exclduing junice's and mayi's group present), wanted to, as planned, go to the recommended place and give her but she had something on, so i decided not to bother her and let her enjoy herself. dunno why.

left with bx, ch, constance, jw to the engin stall... i dunno why i followed them. wasn't in the best of moods either. waited for ch and bx to buy stuff from our stall. i sorta liked the pink bear with its soft fur that brenda or constance pointed out. had the money to buy it but for no reason, i didn't know whether to buy it or why i should buy it. for that 30 minutes when they were at the stall i felt that my mind... wasn't there anymore. didn't talk much. for some reason, the adrenaline didn't flow and i stood there, muted, zombified.

trailed them like a silent shadow back to biz busstop and then walked to hmk terrace and took 183 home. alone. on the way home i saw tons of people coming back from work, the ladies carrying bouquets of nicely arranged flowers and the gentlemen holding the ladies in their arms.

then i wished i'd done something which i didn't dare to do. oh man. why are you such a coward.
*confused*

ps. btw this is my 200th post. didn't know i had so much to crap about.
if you're reading this, thanks for your effort. i gladly appreciate.