Former Sec 2 Outing

went to a gathering of sec 2 friends most of whom i've not been in contact for about 8-9 years. something tells me that i'll be bored.

grabbed the few close friends that i had then, that accompanied me into the life i'm living now, and made for city hall, 1700. venue (decided later): swensen's, suntec city.

the gals (rem these people are 21yo) arrived much later in their cliques. most of them are in nus or ntu; uni transforms these people, from the innocent, "natural" village girl look to the modern working women. after all, some are graduating this sem.

the guys (some in the last throes of national service, some yr1's like myself) were much another batch. the guys that were not of my clique, i found out that i could not really identify with them though i tried to. just sit there in a corner, talking to the people around me, which was mainly my clique throughout dinner.

end up, i didn't talk much with the class, just exchanged smiles and small talk. not as interesting as i expected.
it was hard to believe that most of the people i grew up with, most have taken off succesfully on their love lives and their careers and work life. they keep talking about how their boyfriends.. girlfriends.. and about stuff like their cars. about earning money. about jobs.

seemingly obvious and harmless questions they pose, but i have no wish to have any of this. i mean, although the world revolves around $$, but i do not wish to be part of it yet... sighz. wanna live the rest of this period in relatively $$-free worries. enough money is enough for me. as for cars, i can't drive. it seems like a major stumbling block along my trip to adulthood.. as my parents still have to ferry me around and public transport is not readily available sometimes.

as for a gf... when i saw that my ex-crushes all had nice boyfriends, it's time finally to move on, to catch a bus before the last bus goes and you're left stranded on the bus stop. yes sounds like another reason to prove that i'm damn desperate. as for exploits (operations) in nus.. chances of success are few and far between, the girls i like, dun like me. and i dun think i'm handsome enough to attract the female populace.

is it that they are not receptive enough, or is it that they have other (more preferred) males in mind? after all... or is it that i am not ready myself, instead forcing myself to go into a relationship because of peer presure. to explain: there's this gal in nus that i like but whether is that 100% coming from the heart, i don't really know. i'm not trying to know her better, i'm not trying to talk to her, instead i slink away with my clique of guy friends and we make merry instead with our army jokes.

why?

waiting for a gal like you: foreigner

so long
i've been looking too hard, i've been waiting too long
sometimes i don't know what i would find
i only know it's a matter of time
when you love someone

it feels so right, so warm and true
i need to know if u feel it too

maybe i'm wrong
would you tell me if i'm coming on 2 strong
this heart of mine has been heard b4
this time i wanna be sure

i've been waiting
for a girl like you
to come into my life

i've been waiting
for a girl like you
a love that will survive

i've been waiting
someone new
to make me feel alive

yeah waiting
for a girl like you
to come into my life